It’s easy to rant and rail at the amount of time to takes to make a simple decision. The reality is - we don’t ever understand the number of moving parts that have to be managed before a decision can be made. Nothing is ever black or white. EVER.
I recognize that there is a certain amount of tension I am holding - and have been holding for the last few weeks - and I’ve actually gotten to be OKAY with that. It reminds me that this is important. But I am also keenly aware about the level of tension I am holding, and I consciously monitor and keep it at something like a level 5 to 10 out of 100. I spend just a little bit more time meditating and exercising - to keep my mind and body loose.
Of course, my mind wanders and I consciously steer it towards remembering the positive learning experiences of the last few weeks. I remind myself that I left everything on the table; I remind myself that I achieved the goals I set in the room; I remind myself that the experience has taught me invaluable lessons about how I can be successful. It’s a delicate balance - staying positive and grounded in reality, and it takes work everyday.
I also keep working - building on the good work from a few weeks ago - and allowing those positive experiences to sink into my mind and body just a little more as I look to get better at my craft. I’ve made the conscious decision to delve deeper into the technical aspects of my craft these few weeks while I wait - revisiting and refining the technical detail of a vocal delivery in a song - and tonight, I had a tremendous breakthrough vocally which I am very excited to keep working on. I would not have been able to accomplish this without the good work I did a few weeks ago. So as far as I’m concerned, I’ve already won!
The thing is - life cannot stop simply because you’re waiting for something to happen. You have to take the steps forward that you can control while you’re waiting - so that no matter what the outcome is, you’ve taken ownership of your own journey.
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My name is Eu Jin. I recently embarked on a career as a professional actor after 20 years in the corporate world. A big supporter of personal growth, I also dedicate time and energy in performing arts education, specifically in the arena of practical approaches to inner health because I believe that lays the groundwork for a sustainable career as an artiste. If you would like to find out more or share your thoughts, please leave me a message on the "Contact" page of my website. Thank you very much!