Everytime I get frustrated, I remind myself that I am ONLY in the 2nd year of my career. Realistically though, it can be a very difficult conversation to have because I do have over 20 years of experience in the working world - in a different industry albeit - but still … it is very difficult - emotionally, spiritually, intellectually - to start from scratch.
I am used to an environment where I control the pace, where I am a globally respected subject-matter-expert, where results are measurable and where I have a direct influence over the result. But now, no longer. All I have control over is myself - and that is a glorious lesson to have to learn because that is ACTUALLY all we have control over.
If I think back to the 2nd year of my working life (circa 1998), boy … I knew nothing. I was still a pup, learning the ropes in the publishing world, struggling with crafting emails to suppliers and tertiary institutes to solicit sales and schedule meetings. I remember being very afraid of pissing off anyone more senior than me (which was everyone else in my department and in my company).
In the last 20 years, I’ve learned how to find myself in the corporate world, to have my work in the corporate world be an extension of the person that I want to be. I’ve learnt that you really only need THAT much money to be happy, and I’ve learnt that the corporate world is made up mostly of people who just want to do a good job and go home to their families at the end of the day.
If I think about where I am now, I don’t exactly have those same insecurities and fears that I did back in 1999. What I do have is the know-how to navigate a business transaction, a clarity of purpose in life and an insatiable appetite to keep learning. There are still many things to learn but perhaps … just perhaps … I’m not as lost as I think I am.
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My name is Eu Jin. I recently embarked on a career as a professional actor after 20 years in the corporate world. A big supporter of personal growth, I also dedicate time and energy in performing arts education, specifically in the arena of practical approaches to inner health because I believe that this lays the groundwork for a sustainable career as an artiste. If you would like to engage in a conversation about a healthy inner life practice, please leave me a message on the "Contact" page of my website and a way to contact you. Thank you very much!